I'M GOING CRAZY. Thursday, December 10, 2009 9:15 PM
Dear Diary,Too many days trapped in the house might be bringing out some of the desperation within. Reading cheesy romance novels and watching cute romantic comedies make me feel all squirmy inside now. Why are some people so sure that they will find their true love some day?
Aww, I don't know. I might be going crazy after all.
I'm supposed to be tough, manly and all that. But I guess I am a girl after all (in fact, a rather girly girl). I can't help but dream. But when I try to pull myself back to the ground, I get this sinking feeling. It's as if I have to admit that there wouldn't be a time like that for me. There is no one waiting for me. Which brings me to the question: Why? And after asking myself that question, I just launch into another depression.
Maybe it's because I can think of so many reasons, as to why, myself.
I'm ugly, lazy, stupid, irritating, my voice sounds gay, I'm fat, I can't cook to save my life, I don't like to do housework, I'm messy, dirty, unhealthy, un-sporty, over-emotional, bad-tempered, spoilt, etc...
Wow, that is a very long list.
I guess, I must start training now then. Here's to hoping that I can snap out of depression soon.
-xoxo
Signing off,
Jay
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