The return of school Thursday, January 7, 2010 2:16 AM
Dear Diary,It's a countdown of four more days to my new senior high school life. To tell the truth, I'm feeling all queasy inside right now. There a lot of question marks for this year.
Will I make new friends? Will I patch up broken relationships? Will I do better in my studies? Will I have fun? Will I feel miserable?
To tell the truth, I... feel bad? Feel sorry? What's the right word for this? I don't really know... All the arguing and stuff. After thinking about it, maybe I really am just plain jealous. Because I was too desperate probably. And also because of other people's influence. I'm a bad friend, I guess. Good friends always trust each other and stand by their friends in the worst situations. But I turned my back on her and joined the discrimination, openly fanning the flames and happily watching them devour her.
The truth is... I have no idea why I disliked her so much. Even now I am not totally rekindled to the idea of being friends with her. Maybe I should apologize after all, so that at least I feel better on my account.
I am a selfish bitch after all, aren't I? But at least this time, I give a damn about it.
I don't want to be a selfish bitch.
-xoxo
Your's Sincerely,
Jay
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